My first take at poetry!

I wish you knew..
How it felt like
To be close to you
and still be afar
To know you
and still not know you
People often say..
with time you get to know someone well
But with me
you were pretty unfair
cus you were close and still made me wonder
if you were anythin more than a stranger..

Its true that I tried to impress
No deed is selfless
I wish I had found a better way to say..
U mean so much..
accept me for life..
But that still doesnt justify as to why
you had to put up that fake pretence
to show that you were heartless
and that nothing whatsoever made a difference
I knew it right then
The more I came close
the more far fetched it seemed
you cant be mine
I then realized..

As days go by
I can't help but wonder
If you were just a passing cloud
I think out aloud
you could have told me straight
It doesnt really make sense..
To blame my fate
was loving you that big an offense?
With eyes wide open
you still couldnt see
my heart,my pain,my love,my anger
you cudnt care less
could you..
well now its a thing of the past
but still somewhere it hurts immeasureably
to have loved and lost....