My first take at poetry!

I wish you knew..
How it felt like
To be close to you
and still be afar
To know you
and still not know you
People often say..
with time you get to know someone well
But with me
you were pretty unfair
cus you were close and still made me wonder
if you were anythin more than a stranger..

Its true that I tried to impress
No deed is selfless
I wish I had found a better way to say..
U mean so much..
accept me for life..
But that still doesnt justify as to why
you had to put up that fake pretence
to show that you were heartless
and that nothing whatsoever made a difference
I knew it right then
The more I came close
the more far fetched it seemed
you cant be mine
I then realized..

As days go by
I can't help but wonder
If you were just a passing cloud
I think out aloud
you could have told me straight
It doesnt really make sense..
To blame my fate
was loving you that big an offense?
With eyes wide open
you still couldnt see
my heart,my pain,my love,my anger
you cudnt care less
could you..
well now its a thing of the past
but still somewhere it hurts immeasureably
to have loved and lost....

The Great South Indian Logic!

We as South Indians have our own way of interpreting things. We have this funny habit of making a few rules which actually do not have any basis, no associated theory or facts as proof, but then are enforced on us in such a way that we have no choice but to accept them and associate with some kinda logic of our own, which in the end actually looks as if it was something deeply analysed and hence concluded upon.So here we go!

Logic 1:
If there is an elder brother in the family and he has a love marriage, it will not hav much effect on the younger brother. If there is an elder sister in the family and she has a love marriage, the future of the younger one is doomed.It will imply that u r not from a good family.
Future of the younger sister is directly proportional to the present and past of the elder sis.

Logic 2:
U r expected to have kids as soon as u get married(i mean as soon as possible!), But even before the day of your marriage, u r expected to be a goody-two-shoes.It is wrong even if you go out on a date with the guy you are engaged to.
A female is known to be homely, if she has zero knowledge of sexual intercourse and other related stuff.But boom, after one month of marriage u (I mean the girl :P) should get pregnant! otherwise something is wrong!
The more dumb you are, the more homely you are considered to be! Hopeless logic, huh!

Logic 3:
Complicated relationships(Cheeni kum kind or say some tamil movie with a story line similar to that of life in a metro) and glamour are accepted only in small and big screens. I have to make a special mention of a mallu soap here,which am sure all mallus watch(thts wat my granny told me:P)where all the characters are married and have kids, but there is some confusion about who is who's kid. The whole story line is about which character had an affair with whom, why and when. The whole soap is about sorting out who belongs to whom. A soap which questions the very basis of an individual's existence.The wierdest soap ever.I know, its too wierd to be real.

In reality, south Indians believe that such things dont even exist on earth. Whatever happens on screen happens only on screen. Anything other than what happens around them is either virtual or impossible.

The idea of this write up is not to criticise south Indians. All that I wanna say is that they have such beautiful and out of box perceptions.They are undoubtedly humorous people.There is such a lot of cultural influence in the way they look at and do things, which I should say is truly amazing! I have not seen anybody respect one's tradition and values so much like the south Indians do. Am proud to be a southie! Or shall I put it this way.. May be there is much more to their complicated logic which my small brain is unable to decipher. Come on, we should look at all possibilities!!

First Date

The very first date with the guy you have chosen for life is something everybody looks forward to. Its a very special occassion isn't it? This is because u have just fallen in love and everything around you looks beautiful. You feel the romance even in the hot airs of Chennai.. Tht surely does violate some general concepts, but then when love sets in, everything turns conk. And everything goes berzerk. So the first date is something very special to each one of us. Something that all of us would like to keep remembering and cherish for the rest of our lives. Now, this writeup is dedicated to my best friend who just fell in love with a great guy. And the whole story line is based on what she narrated to me.



X1(Male) and Y1(Female) were on their first date. It was a beautiful saturday evening. A bike ride obviously adds more flavour to a romantic evening. So here was X1 who came to pick up Y1 near a shopping mall. So together they set out on a memorable ride. The first date is also the time when you wanna show the other person that you care and value the presence of the other in your life. So Y1 did have a small surprise present for X1. hmmm.. surprise gift, exciting isn't it? They were just half way through to their dream destination-- a small sea side coffee shop, that something totally unexpected happened. The bike's clutch wire broke! It was as if the lucky cards suddenly went bad.. A typical ass game:(.. The bike was quite a heavy one and X1 did have a terrible time trying to drag it along and look out for a mechanics place at the same time. It looked hopeless.There was a mechanic shop on the opposite side of the road. But of no use! Curse the traffic in the city! Crossing the road and to get to the other side, dragging the bike was next to impossible. So X1 and Y1 just walked along hoping to find a decent mechanic shop near by. After half an hour the weather changed and they found one. But they were too exhausted to even look happy. The mechanic said that it would take another hour to fix the problem.There was nothing much for X1 and Y1 to do until the bike was repaired. So they just went for a small walk on the adjacent road. How romantic can a date get? So Y1 gave her first gift to X1 on a dusty road near the mechanic shop. Though there was nothing romantic about the whole thing, it was a day that neither X1 nor Y1 would ever forget. A candle light dinner, a long bike ride with a loved one is something all of us long for. But at times certain tough moments can be precious too. The evening symbolised that they would be there for each other thru thick and thin. Isn't that simply wonderful?Looking back, it seemed like a funny day for X1 and Y1. After all, such things dont happen often!

Life in a Metro!

Life in a metro... An amazing movie based on the changing attitude of people in the country's ruined metropolis -- Mumbai, where the most important thing is to chase your dreams and make money while the moral and cultural values inculcated in you since childhood take a backseat. A city which has redefined values to make them insync with changing lifestyles and modern day aspirations and priorities. Well, if you are those types who can take in only conventional cinema, I would say that it is not your cup of tea! Obviously not meant for people who believe that nothing more happens in the world other than what what they see and percieve.
For others.. I would call it a must watch.. A beautiful movie which tells you that being emotional does not help and right and wrong are both customised decisions!

Funny Choices!

one of my colleagues is getting married soon... Its an arranged marriage. The wedding is somewhere next month. The funny part is that she has not seen the guy yet.Just one close look at the guy's snap and she said yes!cool rite... How simple can getting married be! My colleague shops at globus for three solid hours to get a good outfit for 500 bucks.She talks about the quality of the product, this n tht so tht she doesnt finally choose something that is not good enough for her..come on, you are spending 500 bucks and you cannot afford to get cheated!
But when it comes to marriage, she chose the guy of her life in just 10 minutes..Without even talking to the guy once..One of the biggest decisions in life, how cool can someone be!I should have been a fool. I couldn't help without asking as to what she knew about thatguy that she decided to accept gim for life!She said that he is from a good family..He has a good background.. I wonder what that implies!I have been trying to figure out this logic since morning:). She tried to convince me by saying that she spoke to guy on the phone as soon as they got engaged and he seemed to be a good guy.It seems that he spoke well. Isn't that obvious? Will anybody talk cruelly to the person he/she is gonna marry.. that too the first time.I seriously couldnt stop laughing!How funny can things get!!

Time for some Buzzwords!

Mokka--- The latest buzz word, the pulse of chennai rather..I call it the pulse of this terrific city, cus its used 'n' times in 'n' different contexts by 'n' chennaites everyday.Too mathematical, isn't it;) Well, for people who don't know tamil, mokka technically speaking means nothing more than a very bad pj. One rule of the thumb to be followed while using this buzzword as a part of an english sentence is that u can only 'put' mokka and not 'say' a mokka (check the verbal usage!) . I don't know who framed this rule, but that is how you are expected to use it! The same word can be used as an adjective as well. For ex, 'it was a mokka trip' .So here, w.r.t this sentence 'mokka' means boring. one word, that can be an adjective and also a verb. Kinda complex rite? But the worst part is that I cannot form one single decent sentence these days without this golden word!The word mokka has found so much of prominence not only in my life, but in the tamil world on the whole, to such an extent that irrespective of whether u crack a good joke or not, people term it a mokka. Everything on earth is a mokka.. A good joke, a bad joke, a concept, an advice, a fact,whatever. So the best way to conceal the fact that you don't really understand what somebody is trying to say, is to call it a mokka! cool idea, rite(now dont call this one a mokka;)). One cool icy word that can camouflage w.r.t context!Great, isnt it?

The Name Sake

How are u? The Indian Ishtyle of starting a conversation. The funny thing about a few questions is that you are expected to give only a standard answer and that makes me wonder as to why we take all the trouble of even asking.For ex, when somebody asks you, 'How do you do?' , you are expected to reply with a good or fine. But, I wonder how it would be like, if you ask somebody as to how they are doing and they take all the pain in the world to explain the situation! like ' I am in the process of pursuing my biggest desires(am not talkin bout IT professional's here! Am talking bout general feasible desires:)). I am searching for happiness' or something like, 'I am sick and trying to get the hell out of this place'.. or 'Am not doing anything. There is nothing much to do in this f***ing place..' or something more dramatic like 'This guy ditched me and what do you mean by how do u do? Do you think I am honeymooning with my neighbour?' oooooh.. Its hard to even imagine! What if u ask somebody like, 'how is life?' and they reply 'its bad! I wanna commit suicide. u wanna join?' U'd better hang urself to death rather than get a response like that! So if there was no word called ' good' or 'fine' .. can u imagine! Life would have been a nightmare rite?

Thank god, there are some untold yet accepted rules! Now u might be wondering as to what this female is trying to convey through this post! Like most of my posts have some kinda take away point, so does this one! Small words can make a difference and we should learn to appreciate the small things around us!( you are right, I flicked it from some random forward. This is the best place where I could fit it in and so...:)) By now you should be almost sure that the author is wierd and so is this post! Digging deeper into the concept of this post, can i even put it like most people do most things for the sake of it??..A 'how do u do?' or 'hows life' does not imply anything..Nothing implies anything anymore. Nobody cares bout ur answer. The world is moving at a fast pace.. Jus play along! No body wants to listen! So why bother explaining??Pls

Note: The author has gone conk and is not responsible for the after effects on those ppl who read this post! And btw, how r u?;)